Monday, October 8, 2012

The Military Wife


---- Author Unknown

The good Lord was creating a model for military wives and was into His sixth day of overtime when an angel appeared. She said, "Lord, you seem to be having a lot of trouble with this one. What's wrong with the standard model?"
The Lord replied, "Have you seen the specs on this order. She has to be completely independent, possess the qualities of both a father and mother, be a perfect hostess to four or forty with an hour's notice, run on black coffee, handle every emergency imaginable without a manual, be able to carry on cheerfully, even if she is pregnant and has the flu, and she must be willing to move to a new location ten times in seventeen years. And, oh yes, she must have six pairs of hands!"
The angel shook her head, "Six pairs of hands? No way.
" The Lord continued,"Don't worry, I will make other military wives to help her. And I will give her an unusually strong heart so it can swell with pride in her husband's achievements, sustain the pain of separations, beat soundly when it is overworked and tired, and be large enough to say, 'I understand' when she doesn't and say 'I love you', regardless."
"Lord," said the angel, touching his arm gently. "Go to bed and get some rest.You can finish this tomorrow."
"I can't stop now," said the Lord. "I am so close to creating something unique. Already this model heals herself when she is sick, can put up six unexpected guests for the weekend, wave good-bye to her husband from a pier, a runway or a depot, and understand why it's important that he leave."
The angel circled the model of the military wife, looked at it closely and sighed, "It looks fine, but it's too soft."
"She might look soft," replied the Lord. "But she has the strength of a lion. You would not believe what she can endure."
Finally the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the Lord's creation. "There's a leak," she announced. "Something is wrong with the construction. I am not surprised that it has cracked. You are trying to put too much into this model."
The Lord appeared offended at the angel's lack of onfidence."What you see is not a leak," He said. "It's a tear." "A tear?" What is it there for?" asked the angel.
The Lord replied, "It's for joy, sadness, pain, disappointment, loneliness, pride and a dedication to all the values that she and her husband hold dear."
"You are a genius!" exclaimed the angel.
The Lord looked puzzled and replied, "I didn't put it there."

Monday, March 12, 2012

Because he loves me!

The little things that he does that just fills my stomach with butterfly's. Some days are hard and we both get frustrated and it's those days that get you worried, but those days are always short and come to an end. It's the good days that make me smile and I remember why I married him. He stays up all night waiting for me to return just so we can have those few minuets to talk before he has to leave for days at a time. It's when he puts up with my craziness and lets me get it all out. It's how he tells me everyday that he loves me and tells me I'm beautiful. The moments when we just laugh at some stupid thing ether one of us has done. The night's I wake up crying or screaming and when I open my eyes he's there comforting me even though we are miles and miles apart. He never makes me do anything, encourages me in the things I do want to do and even helps me accomplish them. He is always there when I need him most no matter what! He's waited for me in the cold winter nights. He's holds me close when things get hard. The way he breaths alone can calm me down. Sits by me when I'm sick. Tells me stories so I can fall asleep. He's my best-friend and someone I can tell anything to. He's my provider and protector. He's the one I call when I'm in a tight spot. He warms me up some milk before bed and hot chocolate in the morning. He does my chores when I simply just don't want to. He talks for me when I can't. He dances with me and makes me feel like I'm a princes. He supports me and make me feel like I can do anything. He lets me finish first. He will eat anything I cook him. He let me explore, but while hiding watches me close, and ready if anything happens. Fixes anything I break. He brought me out of my box when I didn't want to go and showed me the world. He gave it all up to be with me. He has done it all and more.... Why? Because he loves me!

Friday, March 9, 2012

Show me

Show me you love me show me you care! I've done everything for you. I send you packages and love notes. I wait for you and comfort you. I've given you my heart. In return I get words. They are appreciated but a girl needs more every now and then. An action to show that I mean more to you then to have me there to do what you dont want to. It it easy and becomes habit to say "i love you"..."iloveu"... "loveu"..."loves"... Slowly I vanish and not worth the time to find the buried worries of my heart. "whatever"... My heart is breaking.... I need you... where has your love gone. you where becoming my prince, but not I see that the true you is coming out. Was it an act when you brought me flowers, watched me sleep with love in your eyes and heart? So easy it seem to have become to just brush me off your shoulder. Your only there when you want to be. I do all that you want because I want to make you happy. I want to do those things to make you happy because it make me happy to make you happy. In turn I want to do the things that you want me to do. Simple act that take a little extra time a thought. Simply show me you love me. You care for me. Your there when I need you and tears fall. For they fall now and you are no where to be found. I love you... wont you love me in return. For better or worse I will always be there for you and love you. I know you do just... Please show me I'm loved and cared about.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Hear my voice and understand nothing


Have you ever just wanted to say something just to say it. Didn't want anyone to hear or if they did you didn't want then to understand it. Maybe saying it in a different language, a high vocabulary or the best would be where no one else cared what you say so they tune out anything and everything you say. This does have an exception. Only wanting that one special person to hear, understand, care, acknowledge, and react to what I say. Because I don't want anyone to care about me and hear me because I couldn't care less about them. I only want that one love to hear, because he is the one I care for and couldn't passably love any more then I already do. I want him to know when I'm happy, sad, angry, alone, lost, scared, or joyed. I want him to do something about it. Even more I want to know when he is happy, sad, angry, alone, lost, scared or joyed. You can be dang sure I will be the first to know, care and jump into action to do something about it.

So here goes... I am all of the above.... I just want you to hold me.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

A New Beginning


For so long I have been running. Running away from people and pain, feelings, memories, and thoughts of any kind. Running and not looking back... then I heard the thud thud thud behind me and I got so scared that I lost balance and tripped. I looked back while trying to get back up and run again... but then I saw your face and I froze. You were the last face I expected to see. You didn't care what the look on my face was, you just fell to your knees and rapped your arms around me and pulled me into your chest. Your heart beating strong and loud in my ears. This was no easy task for either of us. Yet it was a task done without any hesitation. You found yourself. You found the key. Two objects physically cannot occupy the same space, but when two people love each other and they get close crating love in that perfect way. We break the bands of space and become one, just for a moment. And in that moment we find truth.

Your heat radiates off your skin. I feel as though not a second has gone by sense you've gone. Our hearts finally beat as one and the fears that I have been running from vanish as if they have never existed. Hold me tight my love and don't let me go. There is no going back now. We have chosen to ignore humanity. We showed them all wrong. From the beginning they said it could never work, we would never be. I saw in you what no one else could ever see and I gave you my heart because of what I saw. Turns out you saw something in me, and we found out the secret of what love really is.

It's been said that humans were cursed. Born to live their lives searching for something that was lost or taken from them. Trying to fill that empty space that they could only feel inside them. Searching for their other half. That special someone that would complete them; their soul-mate. Some settle for another soul one that will temporarily satisfy or numb the pain and emptiness they feel. Not ever thinking that they would or even could find their soul-mate. I know without a doubt that I have my soul mate. I cannot say that I found him because he found me. literally picked me up out of a crowd and stole my heart. Only to give it back so that I could give it to him. Together we are strong, powerful, whole... apart we are nothing.

Time seems to have stopped and coming too I find myself finally rested and at peace. Burrowed deep within your chest, rock-wall arms keeping me secure and safe while crating a barrier from the outside world. The rhythm of your heart calms me and keeps beat with mine. The heat radiates form every inch of your skin keeping me cozy warm. Your voice soothes and comforts my worries and fears. There is not one weakness to the protection your body gives me.

I'm done running. I have found my place. My wounds have healed and I can see a happy future. I have given my heart knowing that it could be broken and no regrets if it is.... but the best part is I know it will never have a scratch on it. My love and protector will never let me down as I know I will never let him down. Our hearts are one and there is nothing that we will let in to harm the other. I love you Keith. It has always been and will always be you.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Sleep?!


Sleep is a crazy thing.... how we have to be, who/what can put us to sleep, then the good or bad dreams. The affects of how much/little sleep we get. Some fall asleep instantly and others takes a while. Some sleep though anything and others nothing. Some sleep though the night and others wake up though out. However, what I've seen is; just by having that someone makes it all the better and easier. I never thought sleep could have a sense of humor... till now. I sometimes wish i could just sleep. Night y'all

Sunday, August 7, 2011

This is the end


God doesn't want this relationship to be there anymore and nether do I. The pain and hate has gone on long enough. "Find new friends" He has put me though so much... Kissing another girl in my room. Going back and forth. "get out of my head, heart and life. Leave me one last time and stay gone. Go back to the marines... do whatever you want and just stay gone. stay away from me forever. I gave you everything and you burned it in front of my eyes. I have nothing left to give and now i realize that my heart isn't the cold one. it is yours. you go to other girls to satisfy the pain you've caused me and yourself. This is were I walk away and will never look back. just as you faced boot-camp and looked to God for comfort. I am giving God all the peaces of my heart and letting Him put them back together. My heart is in his hands now. Away from you and all your lies and deceits, all your tricks and temptations. You need to take the time to grow up. and i do hope that one day you will and find someone to love and be with you. it just wont be me. There is no more tears to shed, they are all gone now. The love i feel has changed. I forgive you for all you've done. but forgiving and trusting is two different things entirely. I will not doubt that i made the right choice. you've shown me what you have chosen by your actions... a child plays the "he hurt me so ill hurt him card" you just cant forgive me. I will always love you but that love will be put in a small black box and put in the farthest darkest corner of my heart. there it will remain. that is more than you deserve from me... i deserve better. you are putting me though hell. i cant stand for it no more. it will be hard yes. but i am not alone and i will get though this... goodbye for this is the end.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Key

Keys... So many keys. Keys; for doors and chests, lockets, and gates, the key word, key to a riddle, the key to some one, key to friendship, key to a concept, key to a heart, but the key I'm going to focus on is the key to value... There many boxes in this world and the concept is to find the right box. The box with that perfectness to it. It has the treasure inside. The treasure that was only meant for you and only you. You don't even want or appreciate any other box with someone Else's treasure in it. There are boxes with deceiving treasures that you might think you want. Those are the boxes that you want to especially look out for. There is a catch... The box is lock. The key? Before you even find the box you have to make the key. In order to make the key... only you can know that. Find it within your heart. Many people fail, many people also find the false boxes many times before they know how to make the key and find their box. The crazy and best part is... you are the key. I know, I know... I gave away the secret. However I only said what the key is... not how to make it.

So now that I have your interest and got you excited for the adventure, action, challenge and whatever else that will come into your path. I must warn you this will be no easy task. No no no you are very mistaken if you think it would be easy. O sure you already have the key, but you only know that because I told you, so swallow your pride.That's the whole point though. The path that your starting down will tare you apart, break you down and challenge you to the point of no return. Sadly I'm easy going... so I'll tell you. It is at that point when you give it all and know your going to lose it and you are content and willing to fall. That is when you find it. HAHA! I'm not gunna tell you what "it" is. So evil I know, but it ain't my fault. Just know that. So anyway, back to you. Why do this you ask? Fabulous question, you do this because after all the pain, trials and extreme adventures you get to finally open that box, yes I know you can find the box, that isn't the hard part. Opening it is, then you get to see the treasure within. It will be worth it. Strangely enough, all that you went through is what makes the treasure so powerful, so worth it, so special and so yours.

Once this is all over, look back and I promise you will see that you have changed. You wont be that proud, self-centered, jerk that you once were. Yes I did say jerk. Changing was the key to finding the key. Ironic I know, but don't look at me. I don't make the rules or anything just the one to hopefully give you the chance and some insight in fining the box. There are those that don't hear me and go do it on their own. Fine, they can do it how they want, it's their choice. Those are they that need it even more unfortunately. All I'm trying to say and the main thing you need to know is find the innocence within, and keep it there. Don't destroy the innocence because once it's completely gone, you will never get it back. And on that note... Good luck!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Hold me tight... Then let me go.

It's been months since I've seen you. You say that you've been watching me. Watching me live a day to day life. Watched; watched me clean, and work, sweat, and drive, watched me cry, die, and change. You've been my little stoker, and somehow I don't mind. I wished and waited, then gave up and moved on. You were once my protector, but now your gone. I defend myself from the world now. Alone. For months you've watched me struggle and fall. Get up, wipe off the dirt and blood then move on. I'm good at ignoring the pain now. It's not there anymore. Slowly my heart has grown cold and black, pushing emotion from my life. I am strong and cold. A survivor, a worrier. I can do anything I want without anyone; no one to keep in mind, no one to worry about, to impress, to take care of, to fight with, to share with, no one to hold me, to feel, to embrace, to comfort me, to love. No one at all. I am strong and independent, but also alone. I am small and alone. Being observed like a fish in a tank of crystal water. I am. This is what I have become. Not for long. I will break free the bands that keep me hostage to the cold depths of the survivor. I will not survive! I will Thrive!

Now your here in front of me after all this time. Wanting me, missing me and hoping we can be one again. You left so many times. Why should I believe that this time will be any different? Your are my gypsy. Fate compels you to run. Even from the one you love. The hardest thing is to love someone that wont stop leaving and disappointing you. I know you are stronger, but who am I to change you. Only you can change yourself. So here we are. Uncontrollably drawn to each other. Individually, stronger apart, yet a powerful explosion when together. All to natural that I don't even need to think. My body and heart take over and nuzzle my way into your chest, and just as forces pull us together, your protecting arms rap around me and hold me tight. "I love you with every fiber of my cold black heart." Unfortunately in is inevitable that you will go. Born with a gypsy soul, destined to run... Hold me tight... Then let me go.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Trapped

Many thousand years ago there was a great war in the Sky's. My mother and father were part of this war of the Angeletus and Demonics.

NOT DONE!

Monday, May 30, 2011

Run!


Sitting at one of the few tables that this small town coffee shop provides. I found myself staring out the window. I always have the same spot; the table in the back corner, right by a window. Laptop, note book, pen, phone and my regular coffee all laid out in front of me. With my worn leather bag leaned against the leg of the chair.
My bag contained: a book (in the proses of reading), an unopened pack of gum, clutch, pocket knife, and keys. "Travel light" was my life.

Just like any other summer day. People were going about there business. Doing there every day-to-day routine. I had just moved in only 2 months ago and like always I didn't take the time to get to know anyone and they didn't take the time to get to know me. I liked it this way. No attachments and no one to have going on and on about the problems they had. He did this. She did that... bla-bla-bla.

Hopefully this time I can actually settle down hear and stay for once. Hopefully... Not very likely though. With my history I haven't been able to stay in one place for more than 6 months tops. People were starting to know that I lived here and know I existed. I was someone more than the tourists that come through and stay a night every now and then. This fact alone put me on edge. Then again I kinda like this little town. It's not a nosy town like others I've been to.

Two days later I got a knock at the door. "Strange, Who would be coming here and at this late hour no less?" I mumbles to Revan who was on alert from the knock. I opened the door and saw a large man standing in the shadows in front of me. "Can I help you?" I asked. "Ma'am, I'm Officer Jones with the county police. We got a call from L.A. Asking about you and we've been requested to hold you." Replied the Officer. "O I see." I began, and thinking quickly, "Just give me a moment." I said closing the door on him. That would give me 4min and 23 seconds before he notices anything. "Revan! Car!" I order in a stern quiet voice. Revan at once jumped to his feet and went to the car in the garage. "Travel light" always came in handy... I grabbed my Backpack and threw it on the bed. Then I grabbed the clothes out of the two draws I had them in and stuffed them in the bag. In the bathroom was a bad of all my toiletries. Slinging my bag over my shoulder I went to the kitchen were I grabbed my warn leather bag off the back of a chair and went into the garage where Revan was sitting by the car. I opened the back door and Revan jumped in just before I flung my bags in behind him. The rest of my belongings were already in the trunk. I opened the garage door as I was jumping in the drivers seat and starting the car. Just as I back out I heard my front door being kicked in.

Run: Don't know the beginning or the end to this life style of running, but it is who I am. No one can hold me, no one can ground me. A curse that I have embraced as part of me. So many places to be seen. An unknown path to follow. Where I end up next only time will tell. I'm foolish to think I could ever settle down. Run, I must in order to survive. Like an eagle born to fly I was born to run.

Friday, May 27, 2011

I asked...

I asked u if I was PRETTY, u said NO.
I asked you if I was FAT, u said YES OF COURSE.
I asked if u WANTED to be w/ me forever, u said NO.
I asked u if u would CRY if I walked away, u said NO.
I had heard too much, and needed to leave,
and as I walked away...

U grabbed my arm and told me to stay.
U said..Ur not PRETTY, your BEAUTIFUL.
The only thing FAT, or BIG about u is ur HEART.
I don't WANT to be w/u forever, I NEED to be w/u forever.
And, baby. I wouldn't CRY if you walked away...
I would DIE.




Forget

Do you even think about me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?
In the middle of the night when you awake...
Are you calling out my name?


For get him
Forget his name, forget his face
Forget his kiss,
His warm embrace
Forget the love you once knew,
Remember he has someone new
Forget him when they play your song,
Remember when you cried all night long
Forget how close you two were,
Remember he has chosen her
Forget you memorized his walk,
Forget the way he use to talk
Forget the things he use to say,
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh, forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight
Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved, it's past
Forget he said he'd leave you never
Remember that he's gone forever...

It's only me missing you...
I love you.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Time

Time: To some time passes slowly. An hour seems like an eternity. To others there simply is never enough. Then there is where time just doesn't exists.
Remember sitting in class (this could be so long ago) feeling as if you had somewhere better to be. There was something better you could be doing. This is when you find yourself staring at the clock watching the seconds tick by. That's when you realize what your doing, looking away trying to forget the time so it will go by faster just to find yourself looking at the clock again and it has only been a min. Time is frozen and doesn't want to move.
Busy, busy, busy,... Running around with so many places to go. So many things that you need to do and get done. Driving. Phone calls. Yelling people everywhere, calling out orders and commands. So many people rushing around on the streets... so fast they are going. Where are they going so fast. Days, Weeks, Months, Years pass so quickly by us that the soon slur together. Looking back and wonder where has the time gone and yet nothing has changed.
Time has no meaning, no beginning, and no end. Sitting on a hill watching the fun rise. In a deep dream that go on and on. The most important is simply being with that one person that makes you whole. When your with them nothing else matters. Doesn't matter where you are or what your doing time is never the issue. It's only until your separated that time becomes frozen and only when your together your free. Living life as it comes. Enjoying the world in all in has to offer. Live life as it was meant to be experienced. Taken step by step, stopping to enjoy the little things so that when you do stop you see the future, look to the past be happy and learn from it. Then move on and continue to thrive in life and don't be afraid to give yourself to that one person and you just cant live without.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Fallen Angel


I scream, and no sound escapes these white lips. Pain yet numbness devourers the veins that run though every inch on my body. All is quiet and nothing can be done. I am engulfed in a pillar of light that creates a wall of darkness around me. No where to go, no where to run or see beyond this circle of light that surrounds me. I can feel the creatures lurking in the darkness just waiting for me. Waiting for the perfect moment when I sercome to the pain that screams to every nerve. The stomach twisting feeling that only trolls can give you. He twists the tubes going in and coming out of your stomach causing all food-like substances to give a reaction of putridness. It seems as though the elves dropped a rock into my heart and it hit the bottom with a great thud leaving a trail of heart wrenching pain behind and sitting heavily at the bottom. My eyes burn as the tears swell in them. Thick as blood and blinding that the light seems to dim and the darkness comes closer. The blood in my veins boil as the poison spread. How could I, how could any angel come to this situation. I was born to fly and protect. My place is in the stars and clouds, not in this dark forest broken. A fallen angel, grounded to the cold earth has never been heard of and now I've shamed the name. Angel, no, I have fallen..... To fly again? With these broken wings? Who knows?

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Love is... Life is...


  • Love is a wild horse waiting to be tamed
  • Life is a box with a hole to put your hand in
  • Love is a bonfire with a pile of wood next to it
  • Life is an empty book with blank pages
  • Love is a letter with love and hate words
  • Life is never perfect
  • Love is to be lived for
  • Life is a rock on the shore
  • Love is a hurricane soon to end or begin
  • Life is a bag of chex-mix
  • Love is two trains headed for the same point
  • Life is a silent video in black 'n white
  • Love is unselfish
  • Life is a dirt road with other off roads
  • Love is the mountains, always changing
  • Life is a story that someone will write
  • Love is a closet of hats
  • Life is a clock ticking backwards
  • Love is a dark cloud in front of a bright moon
  • Life is a burnt marshmallow with a gooey middle
  • Love is a bowl of cereal eat it before soggy
  • Life is a new born baby staring at nothing
  • Love is lies burning a hole till the truth is reviled
  • Life is a nail ready to be pounded into place

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

To the Future

Dear Future Lizzy,
One major thing that I would like to remind you is please, peez, don't forget your dreams and don't be afraid to try something new every now and then. While trying and experiencing life, be careful and keep your life how you want it. Things are crazy and get intense in this life. Try it but think before you act; remember risks... The big thins you seem to forget is Have Fun! Life is too short to not live, laugh, 'n love. The double-dutch ropes are turning. Will you jump in and do something? Maybe a trick or two... Or Are you going to sit and watch it turn, creating something for everyone else, but you. Take life by the horns and be the one that they talk about in the future. Make today the future of yesterday. Live in the moment, enjoy the little things, (simple pleasures). Love with all your heart and don't wast your time with things/people you KNOW wont matter tomorrow.
W /
Love
Lizzy

Monday, November 29, 2010

Burn

Knees shaking, eyes burning form the tears that you so desperation hold back. All in a rush it suddenly becomes too much. Your legs go numb and you drop like a rock. Falling to your knees 'n hands, slamming on the ground. Your eyes closed, head lowered in complete humble submission. At this point you call to God, The one person who knows you, the situation and how to over come it. The fury of his love burns within your heart as he takes you in his arms and comforts your troubles soul. "The fire burns within."

Monday, December 14, 2009

Hero's journy (Terminator Salvaton)

Ordinary World; Jail, The world before 2018

Call to adventure: Sign his body away, The death of the world

Refusal of the call: "I don't deserve it" "I'll sell it to you"

Meting with the mentor: Awakes after years, Kyle, John Connor Leader of the resistance

Crossing the threshold: Into the deserted town and being attracted by a terminator c600

Tests, Allies, Enemies: Humans, The general, Terminators, Sky net, Hunter killers, Williams

Approach: Hunter killers take Kyle, left stuck in no where, Group of humans captured at sky net, steps on a mine, Realizes he's half robot and becomes prisoned

Ordeal: The battle with the main terminate and gets killed until John Connor shocks his heart back to life.

Reward: Gets a second chance, Destruction of sky net, gets a heart, Saves father

The road back: Little girl gets trigger that levels sky net

Resurrection: John Connor is dieing. Marcus gives up his heart for him to live

Return with elixir: Gives his heart, Giving, Freedom, Peace. "Everyone deserves a second chance"

Hero: Marcus Right, John Connor

Mentor: John Connor, Marcus Right, Kyle Rees

Threshold Guardian: T.V. creator lady

Herald: John Connor, Williams

Shapeshifter: Sky net, Machines

Shadow: The main terinator

Trickster: TV creator lady, Marcus Right

Thursday, November 19, 2009

A Gift I'd Like to Give

Confusion is the main emotion that stops people in their tracks; makes them take a gander. A moment of frustration leading to anger and once they have pulled all their hair out, about that one thing you just can't seem to remember, get it, understand, bring together or solve. That is when we give in and ask what, who, why or anything else we want to know. "Help!" then it becomes Cristal clear.

In this world today lives are ending drastically, hearts are broken, promises torn from the very souls of its own purpose, and countries burned. Understanding is the only gift that has a chance to make that heart pumping, promises held strong and dept, and countries thriving.

The understanding gift is powerful enough to cover all that. Help and redeem moments as small as helping a stranger, to saving a country from war. If only everyone had the gift to understand; understand each other as well as your own spirit. Understand that one concept to succeed, understand why you should or should not do something.

The frustration of not being able to grasp a concept is one of my most hair ripping moments, as well as not knowing how to move my body a specific way in order to do a difficult or close to impossible action. I have found nothing is impossible, everyone can understand. If you were to just understand how to do that math problem. To understand that drugs do more than just give you that buzz to bear the pain. We can do so much more if we had that special gift to understand. I want to give it to all I know and more. May we all understand!

In my life my parents have taken things too fast from the beginning, too fast to understand what they were getting into. When the parents are the ones still trying to understand why certain things are important? That is when the kids change dramatically. My parents have not been able to understand for so many years that it's time to come to an understandable conclusion. Possibly it was just simply not to be.

I've realized that there are some things you can't give as a gift. With my help I could help them gain an understanding. But before I can give something that is part of me, I have to gain it for myself.

A relationship is the most challenging and most socially learning experience you can ever have. It becomes a studying course where your figure out who you are, who they are, how to understand each other and both change towards each other to become closer, both sacrificing in order to get the understanding we both need in order to make it work. When the time is right and we have both given all we can give. That is when I can both give and receive the gift of understanding.

The gift I would like to be able to give is also the gift I would like to receive. It has to go more than one way in order for anyone to have it. Understanding that one person I love the most; is the most precious gift I can be able to give. To understand someone so they can become their best. Then together we both will understand each other and become one.