God doesn't want this relationship to be there anymore and nether do I. The pain and hate has gone on long enough. "Find new friends" He has put me though so much... Kissing another girl in my room. Going back and forth. "get out of my head, heart and life. Leave me one last time and stay gone. Go back to the marines... do whatever you want and just stay gone. stay away from me forever. I gave you everything and you burned it in front of my eyes. I have nothing left to give and now i realize that my heart isn't the cold one. it is yours. you go to other girls to satisfy the pain you've caused me and yourself. This is were I walk away and will never look back. just as you faced boot-camp and looked to God for comfort. I am giving God all the peaces of my heart and letting Him put them back together. My heart is in his hands now. Away from you and all your lies and deceits, all your tricks and temptations. You need to take the time to grow up. and i do hope that one day you will and find someone to love and be with you. it just wont be me. There is no more tears to shed, they are all gone now. The love i feel has changed. I forgive you for all you've done. but forgiving and trusting is two different things entirely. I will not doubt that i made the right choice. you've shown me what you have chosen by your actions... a child plays the "he hurt me so ill hurt him card" you just cant forgive me. I will always love you but that love will be put in a small black box and put in the farthest darkest corner of my heart. there it will remain. that is more than you deserve from me... i deserve better. you are putting me though hell. i cant stand for it no more. it will be hard yes. but i am not alone and i will get though this... goodbye for this is the end.
